Randoms for today

So today I have been working on  this research paper. I can honestly say that I am so ready for this semester to be over with. I have 2 exams, 2 test, 6 math questions and one research paper standing in the way of the end of the semester. Im having trouble with my research paper though. Im not really sure what direction I am going with it. I know one thing, im just ready to be done with it. So anyway...I was watching Dr. Phil and this monster in law from hell was on there! I swear, if i had one like that, i would have to beat her! but I have to get back to work! later!

Stress

So its coming down to the end of the semester and its time to buckle down. Not to say that I havent already, but Ive kind of put things on the back burner. Im super excited about my grade in English, but not so excited about the speech that is coming up. Im nervous about talking in front of a bunch of my peers, but I know that I am going to have to, because I cant afford a zero on this. Well I mean I could but I dont want a zero. In math, our final exam is coming up, and Im not excited about it. Ive been struggling with Math this semester. I have a great mathe teacher and I done great up until this last section and now im completely lost. Ive tried the homework but needless to say it isnt coming along too well. Well its time to go to math and pay attention! Later

Stupid People

You know I dont understand people. I dont get how you can ask the same question over and over again and expect a different answer. There is a guy in one of my classes....well call him "JB" for short. JB is a very annoying person, he asks the same question over and over again. What i dont understand is if he asks one person, why turn around and ask a different person the same question. The answer is not going to change. Better yet here is another suggestion, why dont you pay attention? I mean really, its not that complicated! I never thought being in college that a professor would have to treat an adult like a child. Dude for the sake of your fellow classmates, please start listening in class, or Im going to start calling you out!

GO ME!!!

So I got some pretty exciting news this week! Im super stoked to share it! If I play my cards right, I will be graduating from Tech in 2013 instead of 2014! That is a year earlier! The only thing is, I have to take 4 to 5 classes a semester for the next 3 semesters! Hopefully it will all work out! Going through this college experience has been rough to say the least! Im proud of myself though. With a four year old daughter I am managing to graduate and earlier than expected at that! Im not stopping there though! Im going to attend Clemson staring that following August! If im lucky I will graduate by the time im 26! On the worse side of things....I got an 86 on my English paper and I am not happy about that because I know I am capable of more. I am really nervous to see my midterm! Im hoping and praying for a good grade! I have a high A in English and I would like to keep it that way. Layla is sick again, and shes all whiny....but hopefully she will feel better. Thats what Im here for. Well my motherly duties are calling! See you around!

Homosexuality and church...to be or not to be?

I was on Facebook last night when I came across something that really pissed me off. I just have a few comments of my own. Just a little background info: Someone was turned away from a religious organization because of their sexual preference. So here are a few thoughts: God's love is unconditional...period. Sadly, religion is often twisted into something that is a convenience instead of living by the true word. How could Christian people turn someone away because they don't accept his lifestyle? If someone wants to be gay that's their business. Our society already puts them through hell. Church is the one place that they should be able to go to worship god without being persecuted. Being gay has no bearing on how you worship God. It has nothing to do with the unconditional love god has for his children. And it has nothing to do with the love you have for God. The bible says he that hath no sin, cast the first stone.. Society does enough to the homosexual community without a Christian group passing judgment. I certainly don't think turning him away from a "Christian" place is going to lead him to god. Everyone makes mistakes. Everyone including you....still sin every day. It's called back sliding. No one lives the life they should for God. The bible also states judge least you be judged.....no one has the right to pass judgment except for God! That's exactly what RAMP did, they passed judgment on a guy because he was gay. And that's WRONG! We should embrace each others differences instead of pointing them out. We were all created equal and we need to start living like it!

Randoms part 2

Im am really excited about fall break that is coming up! I have been so stressed out about school and work that I am starting to pull out my hair! Then on top of all this my little girl is sick! Its safe to say my stress level is at its maximum level! One thing that Ill never understand is why I have to take so many math classes to teach English....this is insane. Anyway...I got to deal with the drunker part of society again on Saturday, just like I do every Saturday. Nothing really interesting happened, other that the fact that we were slow as heck! Man, Stop-a-minute is really killing our business. But on a different note, its been almost a year since I became a divorced woman, and I must say that this has been the best year of my life! Being single isnt that bad, I can do whatever I want. If a guy friend wants to have lunch, I can. I think I might stay this way for a while. I never want to get married again! Things in life arent that interesting today....see you later!

Pardon the language

Sometimes I wonder what in the hell people are thinking! How can someone be so rude to anther person? One of which they have never met! I was working last night and we all know what kind of people come out at 3am. But anyway....this man walks up to the window, throws an ass load of change in the tray and says "pump 12." I asked the man how much it was and this was his reply..."Can you not fucking count?" I said "yes sir" then he replied...."Learn how to fucking count, count it, and put it on pump 12" So the whole time I'm thinking in my head...dude WTF is your problem? Are you that doped out that you cant count? I just stood there for a minute to take in what had just happened. The man come back to my window and was like have you not learned to count yet? (keep in mind this was a lot of change like 25 dollars worth, so i was still counting) I told him to give me another minute that I was still counting and it would be on there in just a minute. His reply was this: " you probably don't know how to count you stupid white bitch, you work at a gas station." Now I ask you what does having a job at a gas station have to do with anything? I would certainly hope that the person behind the counter can count because money is too hard to come by just to give it away for free. anyway...my reply to him was this: " I know my 1,2,4's and I know my A,B,D's...I'm almost finished. But on 2nd thought, I'm college educated and I know how to count. I didn't get through college not knowing how to count. But since you want to be rude, I have the right to refuse you service and you can take your 25 dollars worth of change and go somewhere else. Have a nice night sir." So to make it short, rudeness never pays! Especially when you need a service or you might just be walking!

Randoms

Im not really sure what's on my mind today, that isnt anything new. Most days I just kind of go with the flow and hope I God will wake me up to see another day. Our lives are so consumed with school, homework, work, and life in general, that we often forget how to live.By living I dont mean you are still breathing. I mean taking every second of every day, and seizing everything life has to offer. Things in this life are far to complicated,They get in the way of appreciating the smaller things. Just another random: If , people started loving and would have some human compassion and not expect anything back, our would would be a better place. People have become exploited with politics, money, greed, anger, and war. They have forgotten the true nature of human compassion and love. Its time for better days but sadly we live in a dog eat dog world. Its everyone for themselves.

NASA Engineers (the kind we hate)

You know there are always those people that really piss you off in life. For me, it just happens to be NASA engineers. Let me set it up a little before I get on my soap box. NASA Engineers are people who feel they know everything about everything, they invented the subject, and there isn’t anything left to teach them.  They often try to over compensate for their own individual insecurities. For me, the NASA Engineer happens to be in my Probability and Statistics class. Here is the story: On Monday, I was sitting in my prob and stats class. We were going over standard deviation and lets face it, I’m no NASA engineer when it comes to math. Anyway....my professor was trying to explain it better when all of a sudden; NASA engineer over here begins to blurt out in class. "I came up with a different answer", "that’s not how I got that answer." Now don’t get me wrong, everyone has a right to ask questions, but this goes farther than asking questions. So my professor asked everyone to be quiet, but she still couldn’t take the hint. She continued to blurt out and was being obnoxious and rude. If you are not the one giving out grades, no one really cares what you have to say. No one cares that you got the answer a different way....If it aint broke....don’t fix it.  Just a few thoughts for the NASA Engineer reading this: If you already know everything, why don’t you stay home and find a cure for cancer or aids? Why are you paying to sit in a class that you already know everything about? Better yet, if you are going to come to class just to show us "dummies" how smart you are, do us all a favor. Just shut up so that the students who don’t understand can concentrate and listen. 

Women

      Somethings in this life I will never understand. I cant seem to grasp the concept of why a woman would want to disrepect themselves. I work at a gas station, and some of the things I see, are just beyond me. Women will come up to the counter wearing some of the trashiest clothes and wonder why men disrespect them when they are at a club, bar, or walking into the door of a gas station. If my daughter tried to walk out of the house wearing something like that, I'd beat her butt. Although I'm sure there would be other family members in line. But anyway, there is no sense in a woman letting it all hang out. Guys want something left to the imagination. Nobody wants to see your butt hanging out of your clothes. My final point is this ladies, have a little respect for yourself and cover up. If you dont have respect for yourself, no one else will.

This is me...take it or leave it!

     I'm going to tell you a little about who I am. It would certainly make more sense if I started from the beginning....so here goes nothing.  I was born and raised in Townville, SC...you know the little town you blink and you're there, but you blink again, and you're gone? Yeah that's the one.  As I was growing up, everything seemed normal on the outside, but on the inside...it was hell. My father worked to make sure we had what we needed, my mother stayed home and took care of the house. We sure lived the "American Dream", or so I thought until that one fateful morning that put my world in shambles. I was about 8 or so when I awoke to my mothers screams. My daddy was at it again. He was angry with my mama because his dinner wasn't ready to eat when he got home. My older sister was pounding on the door and yelling at my daddy to stop. My baby sister and I trembled, as he opened the door and slapped her to the floor. The once brown gentle eyes of my father, was now filled with rage. My baby sister and I had always been sheltered from his anger. We were sent to play outside, or off to the neighbors. My father was arrested that day, and I never knew how much his abuse towards my mother would affect my own life. That was until I was married myself. I was married to the military, I loved the life style, but not the abuse that came along with it. I remembered how i felt as a child growing up in that kind of home. I remember how scared and helpless I felt watching my fathers rage unfold. I knew that wasn't the life that I wanted for my child. I knew if I was anything like my mother, I would make it out and I would survive. So I filed for a divorce in April of 2010. By October of 2010, it was final! I've had my share of struggles since then, and I'll probably have more. But you know what? It was that experience as a child that made me realize I'm the product of a house wife and an alcoholic and I'm not ashamed. It transformed me into the woman I am today, and that experience gave me the strength and courage to face any challenge that will ever think about crossing my path.